Ive had a good amount of energy for quite a while now, a few years. But for a few days I have felt cold and tired. I push to keep myself doing what I usually do, workout at the gym, visit my horse at the barn, clean the bird fountain, errands, dinner with friends. Today…
Ive been working hard around the house, the usual tasks that need to be done around here. My days seem to start off with energy to spare and then the following day I push the boundaries of my endurance. I keep up a non-stop pace again and again and again, until I can’t realily decipher…
Arizona gets hot, very hot. We have had many monsoons lately which brings the sweltering heat below 100 on some days. The evenings can still be as high as 95, which has always puzzled me, since most deserts get very cold at night, but I understand that it’s due to the large amount of concrete…
I worked at the hospital yesterday. It is not uncommon for me to spend extra time motivating and gently encouraging py patients to participate in therapy. I have found through my many years of being an occupational therapist, that a automatically decline to participate with a therapist has much more to do than just a…
Pompous. Yup, that’s a good word for the day. Well, actually that was the word of the day last Wednesday (july 22nd) when I decided, “Everything is going so well, I don’t need these STINKIN’ methotrexate pills any longer!!!” I’m done!!!!!!” I have felt fine for so long that I truly felt that I could…
I have not updated the blog for far too long. It is early morning and i have a work day ahead of me. I am healthy and have energy to do this. I love my career. I am an occupational therapist for a large inner city hospital. It is what I was meant to do,…
It has been a while my last post. Once in a while I would think about posting but felt like it could be an omen that I better let sleeping dogs lie. It is strange how the fear of a relapse can trigger a paranoid feeling. I am still on 2.5 mg of Methotrexate a…
I had my 1st appointment with the new rheumy yesterday, Dr. Ch. It went well. I think things started off a bit rocky because of the belief, although not entirely correct, was the reason I was leaving my previous rheumy. In part, it was due to the constant barrage of residents that were always present,…
I have learned to look at situations with different viewpoints. My initial viewpoint is usually from the view of a very personal insight (of course, as we all do) for example, somebody does something nice, we are happy, somebody does something mean, we get mad, somebody acts like an idiot, we get annoyed, etc etc.…
[Huge Sigh]…scared…but I feel must try one more time…so scared… I feel like running to the MTX bottle for the dose, but at the same time, I know I must try. I ask myself, why am I doing this? Would it kill me to stay on a super low dose? What’s the big deal if…
