It’s so hard to have a disease that is so unpredictable and sometimes invisible. This is when I have to put my paw up and say “I’m needing rest and can not participate.” This is hard to understand from friends, especially when the steroids pump you up and you have energy….until you plummet into the fatigue abyss. This is when you need 15 hours of sleep.
This is when you, alone, know how bad you feel.
It’s the last day of the steroids and I start the injections of methotrexate tomorrow. Crap. The shot hurts and the medication side effects hate me. But it’s better than throwing up the pile of pills I used to try to choke down along with all the other slew of pills.
It’s just life. It’s my life. The hard part is having to cancel on friends and events because I know I won’t have the endurance to meet the ladies out, ride my horse, get out of the house early, last the whole day with collapsing with chills. It’s hard when I need so many hours of sleep. It’s crappy. But then again, I have to cheer that I’m alive. I wake up and see and hear the birds and go play with my horses.
My labs are off. I’m trying so hard to keep the dizziness at bay. The last thing I need is a calamity.
Yup. My name should have been Jane aka Calamity Jane. (Was she really clumsy?? Or is it a myth?)
The rash is very faint. Thankful.
Well, that’s it for now. Just keeping you all up to date.
I am hoping and sending up prayers that you all are in remission to never see the dragon again. I just heard of a patient that had a bad ending. The dragon won. Damn that dragon !!!🤬😡🤬😡🤬. I cried for her family. She was only 36. 😢
Please stay healthy friends.
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